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Viktor Nikiforov ([personal profile] viktorymaker) wrote2017-01-30 01:50 pm
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Viktor Nikiforov
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[personal profile] catsudon 2017-04-09 06:48 am (UTC)(link)
( It's a visibly near thing, Yuri warring with the part of himself that wants to be taken seriously and the part of himself that says just get out of there and away from all this. He comes to a stop, shoulders hunched. Just as abruptly, he pivots and slams his foot against the wall. Enough to make a decent smacking sound, but not so hard to dent the drywall. He can't afford the property damage costs.

He doesn't look back to Viktor. Doesn't want to, because there are too many times he can remember just how Viktor looks around here drives him up a wall. He's already way too riled up. Even he knows that much.

It's still bitten off, but he does answer, pulling a hand out of his pocket and making a cutting motion across his chest, toward Viktor.
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Don't put words in my mouth! I don't just believe in anyone's mind games, memories or otherwise.

( This time his eyes cut back to Viktor, chin tipping up; tell him that manipulation isn't a game, that anyone in this arena isn't as much a part of the possibility. That Viktor himself isn't a cagey asshole who plays whatever and whomever he wants. )

Proving or disproving means gathering information. Compare and contrast, or whatever you want to call it. What's the thing they say in primary school? "Sharing is caring."

( he spits that out, eyes cutting away from Viktor again. part of him believes in things like that. most of him doesn't. sharing is as much a matter of use and being useful to others or to himself. caring has jack all to do with it, except with a limited, limited pool of people. )

A load of bull. But sharing is one way to see if things line up in similar ways. Or if there're differences, what's different. Most people aren't sharing the same "memories." I've had people contacting me about those freaking cats all day. No one else thinks Yuri's Angels really existed. Just you.

( which is why he flashes him ... nothing, actually. he kicks off the wall, turning away to resume walking. he's done. he didn't ask for Viktor of all people to have anything shared about the hallucinomemories; worse that it's not even sharing so much as hallucinoremembering something Yuri didn't, and so strongly he hadn't even questioned it in the first place. it leaves him more tense, shoulders making that too obvious. he tugs on his hood and pulls that over his head as he keeps walking, making his pulling into himself all the more blatantly obvious and simply not caring. Yuri shuts out the world. it's his coping mechanism to keep his focus. if he has to do it for this, too...

... whatever. he'll manage it, as one of the only things his grandpa just doesn't understand. why couldn't he have shared hallucinomemories with Dave? Anya? even Sorey? people who for reasons he doesn't get he still knows give a shit about him?

(because life is never fair, and life is cruel, he figures, so it doesn't hurt, because it's exactly like he's always suspected. you can't be disappointed in being proven right about things when you're pessimistic.)
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[personal profile] catsudon 2017-04-09 08:14 am (UTC)(link)
( there is a long moment where yuri almost goes back. But there's more that viktor knows that yuri doesn't; being family, for one. Thinking that yuri hasn't suspected these are implanted. How hard he's tried to ignore them, and how it's getting harder.

He doesn't figure viktor cares. It's not his responsibility to listen. And in the end, yuri feels that discord in his heart.

He doesn't trust viktor. Viktor owes him nothing. This exchange isn't equal. Yuri won't let himself get trapped. They can keep it all professional. He can swallow it down and deal. He's done it before.

(He knows this isn't the wisest response. Knows it even as he turns his back on Viktor's door. Even as he wants those answers to see what it'd meant to Viktor.)

But he doesn't trust him outside the professional sphere.

And so, quietly, he leaves. Minus the moment where he kicks the doors open, but that is... sadly normal.
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Edited (Mobile hates me) 2017-04-09 08:15 (UTC)