viktorymaker

[ Viktor? Whoa there. He's honestly confused by Yuri's reaction for a moment, but he follows him out anyway, figuring out a possible reason for his tantrum as he does.

Well. Since Yura is that clever and wants to be taken seriously, it's time to see if he can poke some holes in his logic. Viktor didn't mean to test Yuri, not outside of dance anyway, but as far as he's concerned, he brought this on himself. So he's going to ask this while leaning casually ("casually") on the door frame, loudly enough to be sure that even if Yuri chooses to ignore his words, there's no way he won't have heard him. ]

Oh? Are you saying you'll believe any and all Retrospec memories, Yura?

[ There's the admission that Viktor was keeping something from him, what it is, the reason for his reticence to talk about it, the hint of bite that Yuri earned from him with his attitude. And underneath all of that, an implication of respect in that he's addressing this at all. How much of this Yuri will actually catch is a mystery to Viktor, but he's curious about it.

If Yuri turns around and looks at him, he'll find a playful smile on his face, for the sake of form, but very little of that in his eyes. Yuri has earned himself Viktor's full attention for the moment. ]

( It's a visibly near thing, Yuri warring with the part of himself that wants to be taken seriously and the part of himself that says just get out of there and away from all this. He comes to a stop, shoulders hunched. Just as abruptly, he pivots and slams his foot against the wall. Enough to make a decent smacking sound, but not so hard to dent the drywall. He can't afford the property damage costs.

He doesn't look back to Viktor. Doesn't want to, because there are too many times he can remember just how Viktor looks around here drives him up a wall. He's already way too riled up. Even he knows that much.

It's still bitten off, but he does answer, pulling a hand out of his pocket and making a cutting motion across his chest, toward Viktor. )

Don't put words in my mouth! I don't just believe in anyone's mind games, memories or otherwise.

( This time his eyes cut back to Viktor, chin tipping up; tell him that manipulation isn't a game, that anyone in this arena isn't as much a part of the possibility. That Viktor himself isn't a cagey asshole who plays whatever and whomever he wants. )

Proving or disproving means gathering information. Compare and contrast, or whatever you want to call it. What's the thing they say in primary school? "Sharing is caring."

( he spits that out, eyes cutting away from Viktor again. part of him believes in things like that. most of him doesn't. sharing is as much a matter of use and being useful to others or to himself. caring has jack all to do with it, except with a limited, limited pool of people. )

A load of bull. But sharing is one way to see if things line up in similar ways. Or if there're differences, what's different. Most people aren't sharing the same "memories." I've had people contacting me about those freaking cats all day. No one else thinks Yuri's Angels really existed. Just you.

( which is why he flashes him ... nothing, actually. he kicks off the wall, turning away to resume walking. he's done. he didn't ask for Viktor of all people to have anything shared about the hallucinomemories; worse that it's not even sharing so much as hallucinoremembering something Yuri didn't, and so strongly he hadn't even questioned it in the first place. it leaves him more tense, shoulders making that too obvious. he tugs on his hood and pulls that over his head as he keeps walking, making his pulling into himself all the more blatantly obvious and simply not caring. Yuri shuts out the world. it's his coping mechanism to keep his focus. if he has to do it for this, too...

... whatever. he'll manage it, as one of the only things his grandpa just doesn't understand. why couldn't he have shared hallucinomemories with Dave? Anya? even Sorey? people who for reasons he doesn't get he still knows give a shit about him?

(because life is never fair, and life is cruel, he figures, so it doesn't hurt, because it's exactly like he's always suspected. you can't be disappointed in being proven right about things when you're pessimistic.) )

viktor !
is it true that you are a k-pop ?
were a k-pop ?
k-pop-ed ?
hm
anya does not know the word well yet

[for the record the message is still in english

she's gotten better about defaulting to it, though it'll probably click in a second that she can speak more comfortably in about half a second]

[ He stares at the text for a bit before tilting his head, and then laughing quietly as he replies. In Russian, because he's not actually correcting Anya's English here. ]

K-pop is a music genre. And yes, I did work in the k-pop industry for a while, both as a dancer and as choreographer.

Why?

[RUSSIAN. you might be able to feel her excitement from her texts]

ah!! i forgot that viktor could understand me too! thank goodness! yuratchka is strict about english so i forgot... thank you.

mr. katsuki mentioned it before and that is why. but ah... k-pop looked similar to idols, which is what yuuko told me that i might want to be. i know it is not the same in america... but i would like to try things like that. taking things more seriously.... since i know what i want now!

and viktor teaches the more difficult classes, yes? is it ok if anya wants to try? i will work hard!

[ Yura being strict, gasp, shock! All the more reason to text Anya in Russian, Yura pls. Still, it's obviously that he's missed something. Being busy has its consequences, Viktor! The world doesn't wait for you! ]

Yuuri mentioned that? And what's that about idols? The Japanese kind, as in Honoka's agency?

[ He'd address the rest, but all of that is hard to follow, please walk him through this.]

[oh no here we are, anya being bad at explaining. don't worry viktor she can start from the beginning along with ALL OF THE DETAILS BECAUSE SHE GETS TO SPEAK IN RUSSIAN

she never gets to speak in russian. she even ends up improving her grammar and punctuation she's so excited to be able to confidently write....]

Oops I said a lot without a lot of explanation didn't I....

Mr. Katsuki did mention it! He sent me a video of K-POP once and said he would teach me - but that Viktor knows even more than he did. I said that I wanted to learn from you both!

Idols is... more difficult. A hallucinomemory? A very real dream that Anya had! They are looking more and more like real memories... so I think I am remembering that I used to be an idol? I did not think it was possible before, but it would make sense... and also why I know Japanese now!

Did that all make more sense?

[ Sharing is caring...? Not a thing in his life, sorry. But he supposes it makes sense...?

Completely missing, or ignoring, the fact that Yuri feels so strongly about so many things that are self-evident to Viktor (so what if he's the only one who remembers Yuri's Angels? Asumming that they're real) (Yura is his relative, it's not like they're complete strangers) (these "memories" don't necessarily mean anything) (giving them too much importance would be counterproductive and play into Retrospec's agenda), he focuses on what Yuri asked and replies, since Yuri is still there. ]

All I have is a sense of what Yuri's Angels are supposed to be. But I don't mind telling you, if you want to hear more about it.

[ Now, let's be honest-- not realizing that the whole Yuri's Angels thing was a potentially fake, implanted memory is embarrassing, and a first for him! But Yuri doesn't seem to realize that, and Viktor is certainly not going to inform him. So, there you go.

Viktor steps away from the door frame and goes back into his office, leaving his door open in an implied invitation. Yuri can decide on his own whether he wants to hear more about this or not. In the meantime, he's going to pour himself another coffee. ]

Edited 2017-04-09 07:45 (UTC)

[ Hallucinomemories... He rereads Anya's messages, trying to get the full picture before replying. ]

I think so. You remembered being an idol, and this makes you want to do it again and take things more seriously to become better at it?

[that's Dave's word. It's a good word. Anya likes it.]

Yes! Ah... I had thought that it was silly to chase after a dream like that... but it's made me happier. So it cannot be that bad?

[yeah realtalk it just unlocked a lot of potential it's a little scary]

( there is a long moment where yuri almost goes back. But there's more that viktor knows that yuri doesn't; being family, for one. Thinking that yuri hasn't suspected these are implanted. How hard he's tried to ignore them, and how it's getting harder.

He doesn't figure viktor cares. It's not his responsibility to listen. And in the end, yuri feels that discord in his heart.

He doesn't trust viktor. Viktor owes him nothing. This exchange isn't equal. Yuri won't let himself get trapped. They can keep it all professional. He can swallow it down and deal. He's done it before.

(He knows this isn't the wisest response. Knows it even as he turns his back on Viktor's door. Even as he wants those answers to see what it'd meant to Viktor.)

But he doesn't trust him outside the professional sphere.

And so, quietly, he leaves. Minus the moment where he kicks the doors open, but that is... sadly normal. )

Edited (Mobile hates me) 2017-04-09 08:15 (UTC)

No, it's not bad. Whatever inspires you to work hard is a good thing no matter what. But are you interested in k-pop just because it seems similar to idol culture? You might want to research it some more. It's not really that similar.

By the way, I don't mind accepting you into one of my regular classes. But I won't go easy on you.

Hmmm, I think I want to try everything. Idol culture is what I remember... but already I think I am different from the Anya that was there. There is no way that we could be the exact same? After all, I did not know Russian until now. So even if I was an idol then... I want to take every opportunity now.

Ah! I never expected you to. Thank you...!

[ Once Viktor is done pouring his coffee and hears the doors being kicked open, far away, he can tell what's going on.

Well, that's Yura for you... And it's fair, too, he supposes. He could have made this easier on him (but he didn't want to) (and he doesn't really regret it, either) (he doesn't even think that regretting it is an option, tbh). So he goes to close the door instead, and picks up the cute cat plush from the floor. Said cat plush will now have earned a semi-permanent spot on his stereo, to Yuri's chagrin next time he visits.

But that's then. He'll give some more thought to Yuri's Angels later, maybe even ask Yuuri about it... But for now, there's other things to do. No use dwelling on this. Now, it's time to focus on the tasks at hand. Life waits for no one. ]

Edited 2017-04-09 08:44 (UTC)

You say you want to try everything, but you have to start somewhere.

Have you decided what you want to focus on in the beginning? Overextending yourself won't get you anywhere, so it's better to focus on few things at first. I'm not saying you only have to choose one thing, but give it some thought before deciding.

Viktor is giving advice...? Wow, I feel lucky!

Hmm... I tried Romeo and Juliet, but I'm not comfortable acting yet. I have another friend who is helping me with modeling... but that is also something a little bit more on the side. It has been fun to try but I prefer performing with singing and dancing, like during the pageant!

Should I be even more specific?

[she's like a sponge she will take literally any piece of advice at this point]

[ What does she mean, that he's giving advice? He always gives advice! ~~Or so he thinks.~~ ]

Be as specific or as general as you like. Have you thought about what you want to achieve?

I would like to be on a stage again. There are some people that I want to take care of - so if there would be a way to get some money, I would like that too.

It's funny that now I have all the words but I'm still not sure how to say what I want but.... if there was a way that I could do this, to achieve the potential that people tell me I have, without wasting anyone's time... That's what I want the most.

OK. You might want to look into talent agencies to see if that's helpful for you, or if you'd rather do things on your own and find your own work and music independently. We actually work with a couple of those at the Studio, but not everyone likes following a set path.

What kind of music do you want to sing and dance to?

[ ...He should probably ask if her parents are aware of all this, but when did he even think of taking his parents into consideration? Never. The answer is never. ]

Even now... I am still learning what the different kinds of paths are. I think I will start looking into talent agencies too. I will ask Honoka too. I am lucky - there are people with a lot of experience before me to learn from.

As much as I love classical and jazz... I think pop is the style where I'll be able to reach people best.

[Pop... Pop Ballads.... Idols.]

[ I d o l s . Well, it makes sense, for Anya and her personality. He's not going to question this. ]

Working on your stage presence will probably help in any case. I teach that, but it's a bimonthly workshop. The next one starts in May

How many classes are you taking now?

Then I will be there too.

Still ballet everyday. Workshops outside. Vocal lessons outside of choir. But only two regularly....

[ . . . hm. She probably needs more than that, doesn't she? Now it's a matter of waiting for Viktor to confirm it.]

What sort of workshops?

Are your vocal lessons focused on performance and repertory, or are they more focused on singing technique?

Jazz, ballroom, tap, and most recently hip-hop! Does practicing K-POP with Mr. Katsuki count as a workshop?

Singing technique!

A vocal coach might be helpful too, if you want to look into that.

[ I think it's important to note that when Anya mentions the K-pop thing, he chuckles silently before replying. ]

I was going to recommend jazz and hip-hop, so I'm glad you're already working on that. Anyway, many k-pop choreographies need that basis, and Yuuri's great at both.

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